How do you not do what you know you are doing?

So my philosophical issues with myself remain. I will further be awesome once I figure this shit out let me tell you. But I got my haircut today and the barber was one of the teachers from the Tourniquet School of Fighting, which runs in the evenings M-F in that same barbershop. I had been wanting to do martial arts for a long time and happens to be getting a haircut months ago and saw one of the other teachers working with a couple of students. I later did something for work involved with the school and ended up taking it for about a month as April was a free month for all in the class. The class is Shaolin style gung-fu, mixed with some boxing and some grappling. It was awesome and kicked your ass at the same time. Their big thing was the core and strengthening the core. And the workout before you even got into learning the techniques was a killer every time.

Well I was talking about training with the guy, Jamain and first off he said it was great to know I was training and he copped to not actually thinking I was 100% serious about going through with the training, so I got my props for that. But I was telling him about the issue I was having with wanting to be great like yesterday. And how I was over thinking things and he said he noticed the same thing in the gung-fu classes that I would mess up something and then contemplate it a bunch before trying it again, thus further screwing it up.

Damn.

So that's the dilemma, how do you stop doing something you know you're doing that you should not be doing? And am I further screwing things up for myself by continuing to think about over thinking? I swear it's a head scratcher to say the least.

Read a couple magazines in the shop while I waited. Fitness mags, one with an article on abs and how to get them, maintain them and all that. I have abs, nice ones, I might add, but I want to find a workout I can do to maintain them as I don't want to take them for granted. And I just want stuff to do outside of wrestling training I can do on MWF when I am not in training. Weights, cardio type of stuff that will only lend itself to the squared circle. Will be working on that in the upcoming week. I'd like to come back from Cali with something ready and fresh to implement.

Training tonight...hoping to freestyle tonight. Still have a score to settle and wanna go at it with Joey and see how I fair against a guy who'se bigger than me, but not much taller than me. Whereas Sed was bigger and taller. And Pierre needs to show himself so we can get it going.

Moving mountains.